verwirrte gedanken ( ich hasse es )

how people's mind works?
why do we put so many q? why do we act as we do?

perhaps a better q would be: is everybody trying to find the answers to all the q that run through her/his head? is everybody thinking: what did i do today that makes me proud to have lived that one day?
i dont think so. Many act as a robot and let themselfs be taken one day after another without wondering about existential things. Perhaps it is better that way. U dont lose time asking some q that may or not may have an answer, sometimes even torturing urself while trying to leave them aside.
are those the ones that (will) succeed in life?
i said 'robot'.. but when i think again.. it's more related to those people that arent that smart.. or that open minded)
but i dont want to get into that subject.. i will keep the so-called answers that i found (or think i found) til now to myself..

i want just to write this row of q: why do people act so stupid when they see/hear/feel something before asking about / finding out the truth behind it ( it = that 'something' )? why is our mind invaded by so many thoughts that confuse us even more? why every feeling in our body is turned upside down? why do we get a node in our stomach while thinking that we are loosing something that became important?

feeling angry.. sad.. trying to look as indifferent as before..

hate it but love it..